Changes are coming...I don't know how long they'll take. I don't know what will happen.
This isn't exactly new territory for me, but I have a mind on the goal now, rather than just abstract ideas of the interim. I have ideas of the steps necessary, friends & family ready to help me however I need, and a determination to get it right.
It's time to start accomplishing my own personal goals. I have been labeled an 'underachiever' since 3rd grade. At 34, it's high time I started making goals and doing what it takes to meet them. It's time to start trying to be happy. I know what I want. I'm starting to understand how to get there. It will take strength, determination, and a solid work ethic. It's frightening, because as most of you know those are my weaker points. I'm scared, but gaining courage. I'm weak, but gaining strength.
I won't sit quiet. I won't bow my head anymore. I won't bury myself for the sake of peaceful coexistence. Conversely, I won't step on people to achieve my goals, as that's contrary to my nature, but my needs mean something, too.
Change is uncomfortable. Change is chaotic and destructive. Change can destroy many good things in it's attempt to create a greater good.
Change is inevitable. Change is necessary.
Change is long overdue.